It’s been awhile, yes? Probably the main reason for that has to deal with my lack of time nowadays. And the incredible decrease in my alcohol intake. I moved back in with my dad a few months ago to find stability. Instead, I discovered a need to better know myself.
I’m a “spiritual” person. I have some beliefs as well as doubts. I recently spoke with a few co-workers about their personal journeys toward a certain religion. Ba’hai, Judaism, Catholicism… heck, I even have a friend who’s Pagan. What’s been coming clearer and clearer to me is that I am a bit lost in that realm. I want to find my place… I can feel God speaking to me, calling me somewhere. What is He saying? Where is he calling me?
First step is this (according to WikiHow at least): Decide why you’re seeking a religion. I’m seeking a religion because I want to belong. I want a community that I can rely on. I want to connect with those who have not just similar beliefs, but similar fears, worries, doubts… I want to be able to converse on a deeper, personal level. I want to have a belief system that feels “right.” Something I can find strength in. Furthermore, religion has always been a big thing in my family. Sure, we didn’t have an “established” religion within the household, but it was always taught that that spiritual part of you is a big part of your identity. I still feel that way, and that is why I want to begin this journey toward self-discovery.
Next, do your research. I have found some belief systems that contain the basic tenants that I believe in, but everything else? I suppose some trial and error is in my future.
If you have any tips, advice, or just a personal story about your journey you would like to share, I would love to hear it! I appreciate any input I can get, but please be aware that in the end, this is my choice. Thank you for your courtesy and respect.